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Selfishness.

I just realized that the opposite of Selfishness is not Selflessness (if that's a word) it is Generosity or Charity.
In relation to that fact that I was born to 2 entirely Selfish individuals, who wield their generosity not as a means of compassion but as a weapon of mass control (leading to destruction...someone call George W. Lol) , I have always juxtaposed Selfish & Selfless. Therefore, putting myself either in a position of Matyrdom or Murder (metaphorically).
In reality, what have have done is become a carbon copy of my parents' burden, their war.
One of those ... "check yourself before you wreck yourself moments!
& yet a brilliant part of my self-actualuzation & entrance back into sanity, I guess.
I expect, but what do I give, without intention (I don't know if anything is done without intent) so, I guess I mean without underlying motive... Which could mean something as small as acceptance or affirmation.
Wow.
Until Then...