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Selfishness.

I just realized that the opposite of Selfishness is not Selflessness (if that's a word) it is Generosity or Charity.
In relation to that fact that I was born to 2 entirely Selfish individuals, who wield their generosity not as a means of compassion but as a weapon of mass control (leading to destruction...someone call George W. Lol) , I have always juxtaposed Selfish & Selfless. Therefore, putting myself either in a position of Matyrdom or Murder (metaphorically).
In reality, what have have done is become a carbon copy of my parents' burden, their war.
One of those ... "check yourself before you wreck yourself moments!
& yet a brilliant part of my self-actualuzation & entrance back into sanity, I guess.
I expect, but what do I give, without intention (I don't know if anything is done without intent) so, I guess I mean without underlying motive... Which could mean something as small as acceptance or affirmation.
Wow.
Until Then...

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The Lack of a title is a result of this post being written via My IPhone.
But, I was majorly excited about, randomly, being interviewed by the school Newspaper.
It bites that it was about the Economy.
But, (hear we go with that dreaded word repitition) I was very poised & articulate.
Mmkay.
Until then...

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Change.

I fully intended upon sitting here and totally thawing out for 30 minutes.

This did not happen because I ... Nevermind.

But, today is New Leaf Day.

I am making one big change in my life, which I hope will lead to others.

I'm just trying to take life one day at a time, which is hard because I am totally nuerotic.

(How many times am I gonna use "which", I know right. lol)

I'll definitely divulge the change and how it goes today, but....

I gotta go to Biology ( I was just so annoyed that I wrote "gotta", lol. I'm an English Major).

Until Then...